Here I Am Once Again

So let's catch up shall we? i've just returned from my first deployment and i must say i'm happier than i could be cause i love being back in the states. I've made new friends and lost old ones due to things i wish not to speak of. I've made bad impressions lately that i wish i could take back because they hurt others more than it hurts me. My life has been rough i will admit i haven't always taken the easy road to follow but at this point in my life i find it that i can't help fight what has already been started by others. I've been emotionally challenged this past year and still fighting as i write down in this post. I've lost a friend to a car accident, Lost a soldier in my unit, heard many things that make me upset, and most of all been depressed over the last little while from these events. It seems like the bad things will never go away from me but i know they will in time. I choose to help others in need and lie to those who i cannot trust. If there is anything that i want more right now is for others to find happiness and be happy.

Life As It Stands Now

Well here i am about 20 weeks later into my future and all i've got to say is wow i never would have guessed in a million years that i'd be doing this job! I am a chemical specialist for the US ARMY! Basic was ok hard at times and very challenging me but i became a better person out of it and also more fit! I got to fire US weapons like the M203 Grenade launcher and also the M-16 i had to lug that thing everywhere i also got to fire a 50 cal. and throw a live hand grenade. I've also got a beautiful girlfriend soon to be fiance and then wife. I'm two days from graduation in AIT and it's been good for the most part but for the hot parts whoa it totally sucks for sure! I have to wear a chem suit and mask for a long time not to mention that i went into a live nerve agent chamber for about three hours wasn't bad at all i love being gassed by CS riot gas! Well i couldn't ask for more exciting news to find out that my baby cousin gianna was born last night neat little girl addition to the family! And Finally i'm coming home on monday for a whole month! so excited i get to be with people who love me. I feel like i'm clostrophobic at times when i leave base because i'm so isolated by the military and walking again in the civilian life is just weird i see double vision the way they see and the way i see but i understand both!

New Life Over Again

well it's seems obvious that my life has gotten a bit better i'm in the army now! lol i would never had made it this far without the support of my friends and family AND YOU KENNA! i have a great group of people who are just amazing. I'm getting engaged to my Wonderful Girlfriend who i've been dating for about three years now and i'm so excited! I've got a lot of stuff to do between now and then. I might possibly be deployed overseas but if that's the case i know what i have to do and how to do my job and i do it with honor for all you americans out there.

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Life And Military

Well i don't think many people know that i'm headed into the military but don't fret i'll get to serve my mission first which is good and i need to pass my asvab test in order to join last time i took it i failed by 1 point! This time I should be able to do better i know i can i'm so excited! it's a big turn in my life but i'll get my schooling paid for and well i'll be doing a lot better

The Temple

I went to the temple for the first time today and i must say that it was really amazing. As soon as i was on the temple grounds i felt a warm sensation and it was freezing outside. When i walked in I saw how beautiful it was everyone was dressed in white and i went to go baptisms for the dead which was amazing i felt like they were there with me when i entered that baptizmal font. The walk to the font was like i was floating. As I walked to the font i heard something inside me Testify that this was the true church of christ. I walked into the water and it was very warm. I did my baptizms and well i feel great i'm going to go every tuesday which is awesome. I hope someday that my mom will be able to come with me but if it never happens in this life i'll understand. I love my Heavenly father

Chick-Fil-A And Love

So yesterday was my first "real" day at chick fil a and to tell you the truth it was quite interesting i realized that i can make an idiot of myself and they wouldn't care since i'm new! hahaha. I love working the people that i work with. Anyway I hope i get this second job that i'm applying for i had an interview with them last week now i got to go back and have another one hopefully after that i can get the fingerprinting done so i can get hired. I'll be making like $11 an hour! it's sweet! The Other thing is that I have a feeling that that special someone loves me alot and I love them deeply deeper than oblivion!